My blog is titled “somewhere I have never travelled,gladly beyond” but lately my life has been more like “somewhere I have been every morning at 8:30 AM.”
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That’s how far I got into writing before my computer froze up under the pressure of word processing.
Sometimes being grateful is difficult and now is a good example. Part of me wants to set this computer on fire. Instead I’m going to keep writing. My parents actually bought this computer for me. They spent way too much, way more than I wanted them to, but my mom knew I would be happiest with the Macbook. She told me it would be worth it. We agree that it was.
Despite my complaining, this computer is actually 6 years old. That doesn’t seem like a big number but a lot has changed in that time. Google Chrome was just beginning to become popular then or at least that was when I first began using it. Now it’s the most popular browser in the US. Some people’s cell phones still had keyboards in 2010. I turned 18 that year. I started college that year.
A lot has changed. My computer got slower over the years and my life moved faster. I’ve been out of college 2 years now. I have a full time job as a content writer. This computer is older than my dog who is about to be 5 in August. Somehow, despite it barely working, I’m still writing this now. So I have reasons to be grateful, and yet, I’m not feeling especially grateful.
I go to work Monday through Friday and I hate it. I hate going to work. I really do. I’m trying to be grateful. I have bosses who are kind, give us bonuses, listen to what we have to say, and want us to have fun and feel relaxed at work. I want to be grateful and I’m trying. So I decided to start writing about it.
In a way the blog name still works. This long stage in my life where I’m anxious for change but continue to work every day is going to take a lot to move on from. Besides feeling stagnant, it’s comfortable to live like this. This is somewhere I have never travelled gladly beyond. Hopefully I’ll find my next adventure soon but for now I’m just trying to be grateful.
